I don't know how to play poker.
I don't even watch anime anymore but keep pretending I do. Not that I don't like it now or anything, just not that much. Same with vidya. I just lurk all day, habits really are hard to break.
I've got a mild case of ***** addiction, im on my third 1tb hard drive now, and I don't even know what's in there. It's more of a what if it's not there tomorrow? thing than actually watching it.
I fell for one of the degenerate memes and I keep telling myself it wasn't me, it really wasn't.
I made a "friend" on /r9k/ some months ago after exchanging some heavy feels, got his email and we talked a bit but I didn't put the smallest bit of effort. He hasn't written back and I can't blame him. I regret it firstly because he clearly made the effort and I replied days later, barely putting thought in my words seeming like an obnoxious junky, never told him much about myself. Secondly because he was the closest I got to a friend in years ;_; don't think I can contact him back now though. For a brief moment I felt what having someone show interest in you felt like and I miss him but he was an intelligent, interesting and succesful albeit troubled individual while im just a boring loser with nothing valuable to give back. Hope nigga's doing better now.
Been postponing getting a job for the stupidiest reason you can imagine: a crappy signature.
Being a third worlder Trumps victory was sort of a wake up call for me, almost got my shit together in hopes of getting a bunch of cisco certs to get a job. Then said ***** it, if shit hits the fan the last thing that will matter is IT. If my country is going down the shitter then so be it there's nothing I can do about it, at least im not going down alone :^)